Ok so I have recently spent to much time by myself or I am not getting out enough. . . my brain is thinking weird and slightly scary things that worry me a lot. And no I have not and will not be talking to people about this, I will just avoid the issue until it goes away.

I have not been up to a great deal other than work which is very uninspiring currently, though that may change with the starting of Tea.

In terms of writing I am not happy with anything recently as it all seems some what incomplete and until I am at least 80% happy with it I will not post it. I have also gone back to an idea from several years ago but that is very much in development. The story would be very long and I usually have no patience for that kind of thing but this idea has been on my mind for a while so I feel it deserves some attention. What I am working on currently is the overall story, my problem is that while I know the major points of the story and a good number of the characters I am lacking the major ideas that will pull it together. I know what happens but I need a stronger reason for why they happen.

Aside from that am currently looking for a new creative output or really just a hobby. I need something that will keep me busy that I can concentrate on when I am bored. If there are any suggestions let me know.

Yaa that lana is coming next week.

I just figured I should up date this again since the last time was January.

I am going well right now, bad moods currently in hiding and I have been writing again which is even better. The stories are slightly sad and depressing at this point but it has been a while since I have written so whatever, anything is better than nothing at this point.

I am also so far more inspired for my uni assignments which up until yesterday seemed dull and irritating but I will wait to see how I go for a bit longer, this feeling usually goes pretty quickly.

My only wish right now is for time. I need more time! I have too much work and too many people who require attention sometimes and that gets a little hard but as always I will deal and struggle through.

That is about all for now.

I'm so happy at the moment.

I got back from Sydney on Sunday and I still tired and packed and unsorted and unorganised and completely all over the place about the trip.

Basically I had a fanastic time, best thing I could have done. It was so good to go, first to get away for a while, second to work on such an amazing project with such an incrediable team of people. I learned so much, did all kinds of things, worked out where I want to start in the industry and what my next step is and finally I found somewhere i feel like me, all the time.

Basically I plan to move to Sydney, maybe next year or so.

I'm back its like I was never gone in many ways and gone forever in others.

I have changed or matured in some ways and I feel more grounded than I have in a while which is nice. I have only 2 regrets about the trip - that I didn't get to shop much and that I didn't just take this one chance.

Anyway thats it, I'm back and I'll see most people at Christmas in January next week.

Lindsey

Hello people

I'm mostly just bored and notice I haven't done this since September so I figured I shuold even though those who read this I see regularly.

Well for those who haven't paid attention for the last couple of weeks the twins and I are now moved out and as of yesterday we have a couch so the place is now looking lived in. I am still currently living out of boxes as I haven't finished unpacking yet and man do I have alot of clothes! ALOT, alot! It takes me about 10 minutes to get to work most of the time and I don't have to drive. I am also eating breakfast now as I have time and there is food I like, for those who think I don't eat enough. Man do I love living out of home, never going back.

It is also about 3 weeks before I leave for Sydney and the silly thing is when I get back I will have spent longer in Sydney than in our place but whatever at least they will be settled in when I get back.

I finish finally at flinders next week and can't wait to leave that behind. Lecturers are jerks most of the time particularly about students. It has been a real eye opening experience to understand what, how etc lectueres really mean, feel and act towards students and I haven't really liked what I learned. I also have a great deal of respect for administration staff cos they have to deal with all of it.

I will talk to most of you soon and don't forget christmas in January which will be to celebrate my glorious return and the fact that I missed Christmas and the twins birthday. No presents for anyone until then from me, you have been warned (I'll buy them in Sydney).

Also I plan to lose a lot of hair tonight!

Lindsey

until something more interesting happens. I mean this is that I am currently just working and waiting for others to get ready, be ready or for several months to pass by. . .anyway:

Hello few who bother to read this

Well I feel its time to update this again as its been over a month and what a crazy time its been.

Main thing to know is I have arranged details for Sydney. I fly out on 30/11 and get back on 11/01/09. Think of me on Christmas as I probably stay alone in the room I have booked at one of the uni halls at the University of Sydney. Think of me again on New Year's Eve as I work and then party at one of the biggest events in our country.

Aside from that looking forward to moving out soon, family is driving me nuts.

Also incase I forget tonight, Happy Birthday Nathan!

And again welcome back to SA, Teagan.