you know what is bugging me right now? do you?

People who call me and dont leave a message who just ring and then there is no caller id and no message and i dont know who is trying to contact me or if it is important and its annoying and then i spend the day asking all the people i know if they called me and its usually no cos its usually someone who never calls

ok and breathe

to catch you all up

Work - is great, i love it is easy and non stressful and i can do it will out thinking and i leave it there at the job in the city in my seat at my desk as it is only done there i cant take it home, the money is nice and i love working the city its so much more classy and then there is the no uniforms which is now starting to annoy me cos i have to consider my clothing for the day but then i can wear all my favourite cloths which bearly got aired previously

I also love the access to a computer and well time to look at stuff like this cos currently there are no calls and im waiting until there is work which means that there can be alot of waiting around and time wasting which is where is journal fits in and the 'right now'

home - im bored i have nothing to work on and its all wasting time and movie watching and the walking when i just need to get out for a while and the bearly seeing family even though theres been birthdays (youngest brother is now 17, sister 18 which is kinda crazy) and its nearly christmas so ill have to start some time soon

friends - well didnt see any last week and this week its been catch up and i feel as though i need to spend time in partcular with lisa as she is going to the uk in january which is kinda a strange thought, ill be weird with out her for a year and maybe more as i may travel myself the following year - still not sure on that at this point

on other friends well you are all invited to my place next friday and you will all receive sms with more details or at least those in Sa will

events - well im still owed money from all the previous work but i can wait a little longer, i have a charity event and then the victoria park races next week and then something else i should really find details for cos i dont know when,where or what yet

and since thats all i can think of currently and its nearly time for me to leave ill leave with that so bye

LM

oh and cos i cant find it on here - reflective

Hey quick cos well Im tired and writing in this can be annoying but I did want to share this

I quit my job this morning, I will finish working for birdwood foodland in around 2 weeks and begin with the advertiser after that in their customer service devision which will likely lead into the event staff area

So with that said Im nervous and excited about hte change, good and ready for the new its the leaving the steady and known behind and well thats kinda scary but it all work out

Oh and i have a crush, i like having a crush its so fun and happy and well i dont think i want it to go anywhere cos kinda have to work with him and also there are other issues and hes a smoker so thats gross but well yes my thoughts of the day

Hope I shocked you all

LM

I feel it is time to write in here again, particularly as its been like 2 months by the look of it, wow that was before I went to tassie and the wow I dont remember

Mental note dont wait 2 months to update next time- too much to remember and well its not like your gonna try so oh well

K to catch up, Tassie was great- beautiful weather and nice people that tended to stare alot but hey that happens an lots of great shopping for like arts and I didnt get to leave the city but I made friends and everyone called me L short for LM which is now a longer story than I can be bothered writing but hey that was before I wrote the it was a long story so Im just going to be lazy and not tell you anyway so HAH! (you know Ill post pics at some stage - maybe tonight)

ANd well I cant remember much that happened after that, except the depression which seems to set in when i end up back at work and feeling stuck in my life and well since then have decided that Im well its a probably going to stay at foodland until I get long service leave at which time Ill look for a job cos thats like 6 weeks or something and Ill have holidays too

I worked at uni on open day and well that was a day of wow is it hard to explain, people staring again, studip questions and strange expections and inspiring speeches from me about the course which i realised i knew very little about ( I now know theres a 80-90% employment rate out of uni, all the subjects that are meant to be studied, I knew where some jobs were but now i know more and i can justify why any other degree can be covered in this course and is better for it) oh and people are sheep but hey I liked the $44 an hour on sunday

Now im reading heavy academic journals and books related to event design to understand the difference between it and event management and then the difference between the styles used by two different event creators - figure that out why dont you

And im getting crazy cos im bored, the last time I was this bored I well maybe not the last time but before that I agreed to get a tattoo ( which i keep meaning to put a pic up of but its not as interesting or impressive as dudes now cos shes had hers redone) before that I permed my hair and now Im just waiting for the right impulsive thing to do which my not sound impulsive but it is really when you realise how little time i have to do anything but work and uni and watch dvds before dude goes away and they get left in her house wait now that i think about it i should have waited and used that to answer the what the hell am i going to do while shes away - aside from the obvious go nuts but i can do that with her in the same country!

WOw i needed to write that obviously, actually i just hadnt noticed how much i had written and since in true form i will not reread this before posting it, editing is for other people ill not name you just think of you in that way that suggests your of lesser minds

And cos well everyone else is doing it and sometimes i want to join the flock but i like the wolf in costume approach

Mood- undecided- tired, bored and kind of reflective and possibly pensive
Listening to- Nickelback
Watching- was gilmore girls season 3 and that 70s season 3 but done now, so just the cat (shes going to bite me)
Reading- well aside from event Management: an international journal, Fire on the Water: a personal view of theatre in the community and the like, rereading The Ancient Future by Traci Harding

and now im tired and since i dont know who is even going to read this its not like it matters so bye

LM

and then the sooner i get back

Kinda nervous at this point not sure and waiting for it to be over but really wanting it to happen!

And for those of you who at this point are wondering what i'm talking about or are going with the dirty part in your head on a journey that im not considering im talking about my trip to Tas!

I leave tomorrow! I havent packed yet cos im stressed about an assignement and trying to take it with me not sure how thats going to work at this point and well thats all there is to that ramble, good word ramble. Did you know that the rambling rose varietys are actually mutations of the orginal bush varietys . . . anyway

So i leave and then i get back and then im hopfully happy for awhile and that feelign that im trapped in a life that i dont want or like at most times will hopefully go away as everyone will learn to appreciate me while im gone, ok thats mostly work or it better be as unlike me im not caring about anything i do there any more and finding ways to not do it which isnt like me i do it i get it done! I hope that this time away will also remove or at least dull my need to get away or take off or disappear and just live my life for myself in a way taht i want to not for others or for any other reason , Basically im hoping for renewal of self and renewal of my life and understanding of it and how i fit etc, really not that much to ask i think

So with that out of the way

Coldplay was fanastic and great and so were youth group and they were funny (main guys boots) and coldplay running all over the place, the stage mostly and then at one point the audience (funny to watch the body guards running cos they didnt expect that)

Pirates was ghasrg nadfghrk,gnrlgharkg nadrkgj, I think that covers that. Im gonna go see it again!

Thats about all there is to say at this point so bye all i be back next sunday

and cos its becoming my sign out and for those of you who dont know about it yet to bad you figure it out

LM

Hey people hows all?

Me avoiding assignments, busy maybe getting a job but i have to wait a week before i find out details and basically interested that no one has anything to day to me currently

Hello!!!

I need to do something, I work I do uni work at some point and my friends a working

AHhhhhhhhhhh, now u all understand the name?